Have you ever wondered why your mind races with so many thoughts, and you find yourself having a hard time finding peace? I remember when I was a child, and would find comfort with certain people, whether it be my parents or friends. I could have just ruined the kick ball game for my team by missing the home run and been feeling like a failure, but when I’m around them, it never seemed as bad. You may be like me, and have been anxious of what’s to come, but the company of certain people helped make those thoughts disappear, or change perspective. Now that I’m approaching my 30’s (yup, almost there), I’m realizing the importance of having consistent time with God.
Just like many, I have responsibilities that can cause anxiety. For example, I’m a husband and a father, so my mind asks, will I be able to provide exactly what my wife and children need. It races with scenarios when I hear my little girl had to go to the ER, or my wife’s car broke down, or I chose the wrong size dress as a gift for the holidays (kidding; not kidding). In Philippians 4:6, Paul writes, “Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known to God. And the peace of God, which surpasses all comprehension, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.” When I’m anxious, I begin to pray, so that I will no longer feel anxious about what’s happening, but it doesn’t always go away. I may go hours feeling the same way, and nothing feels different. Why is that? I don’t have the exact answer, but what I do know, is that more times than not, I handle situations in my heart with my own understanding. I feel that I have it covered that time, so I find I only pray when I come across something beyond my ability to handle. Not the worst thing in the world, but to put it in perspective, it’s like I’m telling God, “I got this. I’ll come to you when I really need you.” To which I ask myself now, “How’s that been working?”
God can be that company we had as children, which made the anxiety disappear just by being in His presence. I want to enjoy His presence daily, especially when life tries to catch me off guard. I want to resist my human nature to rely on my own understanding to respond. Failure to plan, is planning to fail, so I plan to have God with me in every moment, especially BEFORE my heart become anxious.
What does this look like? I’m learning as I’m going, but I know it’s helped to have time with God. Each day, having some sort of time with Him where you speak and listen. Probably best to do more listening. Write to him if that’s your style. I know some to be expressive through art. Whatever you find that helps you focus on your creator, do it. It’s so much better having His spirit speak to you way before the waves of anxiety hit.
I pray this helps! God bless you guys!